Back in August, our son Matt had a very difficult time at a birthday party Dave and Busters. The lights, sounds and crowds can be a lot to handle for someone with autism so as his way of handling things that day, he chose to isolate himself from the others. Inside our little party room, he stood against the way, by himself, for well over an hour doing nothing, really, but looking around.
In a heartbreaking moment, Matt grabbed a marker and wrote some notes to a song and called it “Alone”.
Through a chance meeting with Cricket Barrientos – founder of the non-profit organization Sounds of Autism – those notes have since been expanded and lyrics have been added to produce the following song and video. I’m not going to lie, I cry every time I listen. It’s touching and emotional but also provides a glimpse into the mind of someone with autism.
I’m going to let the music and the song speak for itself…
I stand in this corner all alone,
Watching as the world moves around me.
No one understands how I feel,
I don’t take any part in their surrounding.
I am alone
My mom comes to me she looks so sad,
Her words offer comfort I wish she would have.
Her hearts always breaking as she watches me,
Standing in my corner all alone.
I am alone
I am alone, I am alone, I am alone, I am alone, I am alone.
I write this song as I stand in my corner,
It’s the way I make myself feel better in this world.
The notes I draw and the staff I make are a winding road
My emotional state
I write this song as I stand in my corner,
Don’t worry mom I’m ok
I am alone
I am alone, I am alone, I am alone, I am alone, I am alone.
